2005-12-24, 11:13 AM — holiday cheer
I admire all of you who actually keep up your websites and blogs. I'm totally a slacker in this regard, and yet I know there are people who update more than once a week (as compared to my once a month).
What keeps them going? How is it that they have so much to say? Even if they don't have anything to say, they usually manage to write enough to entertain me.
As we all know, it doesn't take much. But I do find the fact that there are people out there who can keep updating, day after day, week after week, despite everything, for years... that's something.
And, merry Christmas, happy holidays, and all that jazz. It's Christmas Eve!
I'm going to start wrapping. By this time tomorrow, fishy and I will have spent our first Christmas morning exclusively together. I like that.
2005-12-20, 01:03 PM — simple things...
I'm not that hard to please, really. Case in point: I changed my work email signature this morning. I added "Happy Holidays!" in Arial 10pt Bold, alternating green and red each letter.
Thus, I now get a little thrill each time I send out an email message. I was sending invoices, and each time I hit "send" I ended up being inordinately pleased with myself.
2005-11-04, 09:30 AM — i'm bored of my own thoughts...
Lately, my mind has felt really disorganized. The things I usually like to think about are all still in there, but they're all jumbled up. I'll spend five minutes wondering what I want to think about, and then wondering why I picked that particular topic.
Or I'll think about something for five minutes, and suddenly realize that I'm thinking about something other than what I intended to in the first place.
I mean, that happens, but it's been happening a lot lately.
I think the most frustrating thing is the first part, though. Just wondering what it is I enjoy thinking about and what I enjoy doing. I'm used to knowing what I want, and enjoying very specific things and thoughts. For example, I like making up stories in my head. I've got characters and a lot of drama to work out in there, so it's a good thing for me to spend some time playing in my head every day. But it's hard to do that when I start to decide I don't want to think about certain stories or characters. Then there's nothing to fill the gap.
Am I being too vague? I don't know if this is one of those things other people do. When I was young, I used to assume that other people feel and think many of the same things in the same way. Now that I'm a bit older I've realized that there are things that go on in my head that are not shared by the wider population...