2005-06-16, 10:59 PM — a sense of place
I grow attached to places. I've noticed this over the years. As much as I love to hate St. Catharines, for example... well, I love to hate it. It's now a special place in my book, because I've lived there.
Same with Hamilton, although I just love to love it. It's the city that everyone else seems to love to hate.
Which is why I have a hard time understanding how people can just pick up and leave and know they'll never be back to stay. Take my brother, for example. He lived in a fantastic city in France for four months... and then he left. I'm not sure how people can do that. I would always feel a little torn, and a little surprised that I wasn't going home.
Going back to St. Cs for the convocation was just that sort of weird. it was weird to take the wrong turn-off, and weird to go back to the BeachHouse and know I wasn't staying. It was really weird to see my old apartment.
I just grow to love places really easily, and they all take on characters of their own in my head. I can imagine my room in the BeachHouse missing me... and in some ways I miss it. A lot of really important things happened in that room, and it's always going to stick in my head, I think.
2005-06-11, 10:40 PM — random e-test
Okay, one more. This link was courtesy of Phil's 8-Track Mind...
| Benedick Hark, Ye scored 63! |
| You are Benedick from Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing! Wryly sarcastic, but with a warm and loving heart, you look for love and happen to find it.. normally in the most unlikely of places. You consistently need to assure yourself that you are not falling prey to love.. but everyone (including yourself) knows that you are. |
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My test tracked 1 variable How you compared to other people your age and gender:
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| Link: The Shakespearian Character Test written by LoudmouthLee on Ok Cupid |
Dude, since when did I ever need anyone to convince me I wasn't in love?! We all know I am, and if you're really lucky I might not mention several times that the wedding is in September.
However, it's nice of them to note that I am wryly sarcastic. I'd like to think it's true.
2005-06-11, 10:27 PM — brushing with the past
I was at a concert tonight that had an audience of primarily people I remembered from a lifetime ago.
Really, if I look at the things that have happened to me in the past five years, and think about the person I am now in relation to who I was then... wow. I'm miles away from it.
Maybe not miles ahead in all those ways, but in some ways I am. I am a far happier person now than I was then, and some of that can be attributed to hormones and chemistry, but some of it can be attributed to the way I've gotten used to working my brain.
All that said, there are some very fundamental things about me that haven't changed. The most fundamental thing that has changed is that I am much happier with the person I am, even the parts that haven't changed. I like me. It's sappy and maybe kind of stupid, but lord, it's a good feeling.