2005-06-11, 10:27 PM — brushing with the past
I was at a concert tonight that had an audience of primarily people I remembered from a lifetime ago.
Really, if I look at the things that have happened to me in the past five years, and think about the person I am now in relation to who I was then... wow. I'm miles away from it.
Maybe not miles ahead in all those ways, but in some ways I am. I am a far happier person now than I was then, and some of that can be attributed to hormones and chemistry, but some of it can be attributed to the way I've gotten used to working my brain.
All that said, there are some very fundamental things about me that haven't changed. The most fundamental thing that has changed is that I am much happier with the person I am, even the parts that haven't changed. I like me. It's sappy and maybe kind of stupid, but lord, it's a good feeling.
2005-06-09, 09:49 PM — the sound of static
........
I'm back!
Wait, there's more. I'm back -and- I've got a degree.
I think I'm far enough away from it that I can start writing again. My brain is happier than it has been in a while, but my heart already misses school. I think my brain will again before too long. I miss being around people who are interested in things. I know I can find this in a workplace, too, depending on where I go. I just haven't yet.
So, everything went well. It went really well. In fact, it went well enough that I brought my average up in my last term of school. I don't think that's unheard of, but it's not an easy thing to do, and I'm pretty dang proud of it.
And then yesterday I got to walk across a stage (and not trip! woo!) and accept my diploma. By the time I was sitting back down, I was already thinking about what the next step is. Whatever it is, it's going to be good. Because despite all the crappiness that was, there were a lot of really good things too, and I'm ready to have some more of that scholastic goodness.
2005-04-02, 09:35 AM — oh happy day!
Done!
Until defense time... exactly two weeks to go.